Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Alright lets talk about it! I can't stop smiling. This is great. John Mark the night he proposed was the first guy and first time I've ever kissed anyone. Wow. It's pretty cool. I was telling him tonite how glad I am that I waited to kiss until I was sure that it was the right person and the person I was going to spend the rest of my life with. That's not for everyone, and there is nothing wrong with kissing---this I understand. For me I find that I'm in awe. I have no clue if I'm a good kisser or bad, but I don't care----Really. Its such a cool thing to know that everything that I was saving and will continue to save are for John Mark. I feel so blessed. I will say that I've come to see the importance of standing firm, having boundaries that you both understand and respect. From the beginning. Purity is the best gift that you can give your spouse. It's such a treasure and should be treated as such. If there were two thing I would want my siblings to learn from me they would be 1) Surrender is sweet. Rest in Christ and learn to trust Him (I'm still learning) His plans far exceed anything you could ever imagine 2) Respect yourself. Know who you are in Christ inside and out. You are beautiful and precious. Value yourself. My pastor said the other day in church that the cars that they have to advertise on tv are the cheap cars. Never do you see a commercial for Lamborgini, or BMW. They don't have to say how wonderful, great they are we already know. That analogy spoke volumes to me. I hope my sisters know how beautiful they are and how sacred and precious that beauty is.